Now I’m haunted by the left unsaid.

The.wedding.post.is.coming. I PROMISE.

But in the meantime, I’m angry. I’m also stupid.

Once again, I let something that someone said upset me and stop me doing something. Even worse its someone whose opinion I really don’t give a shit about.

While we were away on our honeymoon I updated twitter from my mobile while we were driving around, and sometimes at night. Anyway this charming individual put their facebook status to:

Survey: Would you find it sad if your friend was on their honeymoon and spent most of the time updating their facebook status? Yes. No. Maybe. ???

Nice isn’t it. Then 8 people chimed in saying that yes, her friend is a huge giant loser. Which made me feel like…well like a huge giant loser. So I stopped twittering altogether (my twitter was linked to facebook). I stopped because of one person?

I did not spend ‘most of my time’ updating my Facebook status. I really didn’t.

I guess I can understand why people might think that’s a loser-ish thing to do. It’s really really geeky. But does it really matter?

Then when I got back, I had all week to blog and I was really really looking forward to that time. But every time I went to blog, I just felt crushed. Like everyone must be talking about what a huge enormous loser I am.

It wasn’t until this afternoon that I really thought about how its one person, whose opinion I don’t really give a crap about. I thought about how lots of my friends tweet, and are on Facebook just as much as I am and some of  friends also have great blogs that they actually make time to update regularly! I don’t think they’re losers!!

In the ‘olden days’ a honeymoon might have been a time when the newlyweds spent hours gazing into each others eyes, sipping champagne, eating oysters and giving each other sensual massages. On our honeymoon we went swimming, snorkelling, went on roller coasters and water-slides and helicopters and I drank Fourex Gold AND I twittered all about it. So all you Nellie Naysayers and Peter Putdowns can go frog* yourselves.

Sometimes I think I’m a lost cause. Why do I still insist on letting people get at me?

- Jen

* I just can’t bring myself to say it.

The ‘59 Sound – SOTM November 2009

Thanks again to Tony for the suggestion. This song is brilliant! It’s ‘The ‘59 Sound’ by Gaslight Anthem. I’ve already bought the album. That’s how good it is.



- Jen

If you’re wondering if I want you to (I want you to) – SOTM October 2009

Although I’ve recently stumbled on a whole heap of new songs, this HAD to be SOTM for October.  Mainly because in the week before the wedding I listened to it about ten times a day. At least.

It’s catchy and I love it! Some of the lyrics I’ll be using for the wedding post, when I get around to writing it.

So here it is: If you’re wondering if I want you to (I want you to) by Weezer.

Little Lion Man – SOTM September 2009

Thanks to Tony for this one. A massive big thanks, just what I need some new fresh music. I’m just shattered that their debut album doesn’t come out until October!!

Anyway, its ‘Little Lion Man’ – by Mumford & Sons. Their name makes them sound like removalists or butchers..but I assure you this is an awesome song!

- Jen

This blog is not yet rated.

Right. First things first. I’m not writing to any ‘audiences’ anymore. In the beginning, my blog was my blog and I’d write anything. Now I know my parents and possibly grandparents read it, and everytime I go to write the brakes go on. Well no more censoring! So read at your own risk!

Obviously I’m not going to blog much about work, but anything else I want to write, I will. And I’ll write it how I want too!

Put it this way. There will be no more ‘frogs’. Anyway Shell doesn’t say ‘frog’ on her blog.

WHY AM I STILL SAYING FROG!

- Jen

Baby steps.

Honestly, I have been blogging….kind of. Every now and then I write long post. A long, boring post about how hideous everything is right now.

I either delete them or they are just saved as drafts. I suppose, really that everything is not hideous at all. Work has been hideous. Well not even all of work is hideous. I’m actually liking some of it. I’ve been acting as an EL1 for the past five weeks. Which has kept me crazy busy. Its been so different.

But anyway, I won’t blog about work. What else has been hideous? Nothing really. The wedding stuff even isn’t that bad. RSVPs are rolling in slowly. Think we’ll end up with about 20 less than we expected. You know what that means! ……leftover bonbonniere! Less name cards to make!

Alright, I’m going to cut it off here. I will be back later though, maybe with news of the pies in the GF….but probably not!

- Jen

Struggle street

Well this has gone way beyond writers block. I simply do not want to blog! I have some stuff to write about I guess, its not like I’ve been doing nothing. I’ve been busy! With work, and wedding stuff and my running. But meh.

I’ll try and crank out a post..on anything! Let’s see how I go.

- Jen

2:30 – 5:21 – SOTM August 2009

So the SOTM this month is ’21st Century Breakdown’ by Greenday. Except only from 2:30 – 5:21 of the song. The start of the song is generic GreenDay [insert whinge whinge generation, misunderstood whinge whinge teen angst whinge whinge].

Its 2:30 on the clip I’ve got here. I couldn’t find an official Greenday video clip, so I’ve got  a live version. Those two and a bit minutes are really catchy.

Click here to watch

- Jen

MapMyRun.com | View 08/04/2009 Casselden Place – Two Stadiums Return in Melbourne, Australia

MapMyRun.com | View 08/04/2009 Casselden Place – Two Stadiums Return in Melbourne, Australia

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My 500th post.

I know. I’m slack. Well not really! I’ve just been too darn busy to blog. There is also a direct correlation between the man’s current video game and my blogging. Right now he is back to playing some shoot ‘em up on the PC. Something about WWII and snipers, anyway he can’t talk while he is playing it which I find incredibly annoying. HELLO!!! I just went to work for eight hours and I need to tell you everything that happened so you end up in as bad a mood as me!

Actually Jentopians, I have gone to blog a couple of times – I have the drafts to prove it.

Last weekend (the one before last technically) I had my wedding dress fitting, hair trial and makeup trial all in the one day. PH-EW. It went surprisingly well. I’m a little nervous about the makeup only because I don’t wear any, so when I’m wearing some I really don’t like it. I’m sure I’ve said this before but I just don’t see the point of it.  But anyway, it looks like I will get away with the bare minimum so I won’t look too…overdone.

What else? My running is going really well, I’ve been well behaved and not overdoing it, more stretching than running! I ran my first 10km in probably two years a couple of weeks ago. 10 laps around Queens Park. Yes, it was incredibly boring but I’m so stubborn that I’ve been running around that park for month as my knee has gotten better and better. So I decided that my 10km would have to be running around there. It’s a mental thing. It was a bit mental actually. But I did it! I’m considering doing the 10km in the Melbourne Marathon. I’d like to aim for a half marathon but I just think its too far!

What ELSE.. I applied for tuition assistance at work so I can start my masters of taxation next year. I’m not overly thrilled about it, but it seems like something I *should* do. I had a bit of a quiet week at work last week and spent a bit of time wondering what I’m doing. I really really want a job where I am outside, and constantly busy. Something active would be really good. Some police like came to mind, but they get paid nothing. I’d almost be taking a 50% paycut to work strange hours and risk being shot at. I looked at other uni degrees but nothing jumped out at me. I don’t know what to do! I’m worried that if I don’t do something soon, I’m going to limit my options.

Also, for some reason I had it in my head my Mum had me when she was 28. I don’t know why that figure stuck in my head. It wasn’t until I was looking at my birth certificate the other day that I realised she was 25. I’m 25!!! How pesky.

I’ve also had this urge to go overseas again. With the man of course. But I guess its been almost a year now since our holiday. I just keep thinking about it! That first morning when we woke up on Bridgie and George’s floor in ‘the caravan’, then got up and walked down to Sainsbury’s at Clapham Common, got some awesome fruit then caught the bus into town. Sitting at the top of the double decker bus (yes we’re tourist dorks) going “we’re in London!!”. Let me put it this way… the man was excited. So after the wedding, and the honeymoon, and our credit card bill – I want to start saving for overseas. I definitely want to go back to Europe. Which includes England for those people who don’t know that.

Enough rambling, time for bed.

- Jen

p.s yes this does count as a post

p.p.s any SOTM suggestions?

p.p.p.s Yes I will get around to doing my own hottest 100….one day. If I break a leg or something.